By far the biggest lesson I’ve needed to apply quantum forgiveness to is with my finances. Why is it that the women I work with have received huge wins in the area of their finances and this has taken me longer than I'd like to resolve?
It’s because we all have a very special individualized curriculum when it comes to undoing the ego.
All of us have different lessons to heal.
And sadly, for too long, I thought that I was going to be stuck forever with my money story. My ego kept me stuck longer than I wanted.
A year and a half ago I invested in a money course about healing limiting beliefs (similar to the work I do now). This course was brilliant and had more success stories than I can count. It was powerful and clearly worked.
Yet there was still a part of me that thought- this can’t work for me.
I’m too stuck.
It’s just the way things are.
Maybe you recognize these stories in yourself. These stories end up keeping us stuck and in suffering for way longer than we would like. Am I right?!
So, instead of believing that story, what if that was just another limiting belief to clear. When I realized that and got serious that I was ready for a new way, things started shifting. But I can understand that it’s not easy or comfortable to face those things in us that want attention and a new way.
I had so much guilt and shame around my money story. It was hard for me to look at and want a new way. I thought if I looked at it then things wouldn’t change and I’d just end up having more hurt. So it was easier not to look.
Sadly, I had beliefs that rich people were selfish.
Or that there wasn’t enough money.
I had beliefs that I wasn’t deserving to have money and so I would quickly spend it when I received it.
All of these beliefs were becoming conscious to me, but I was still unable to fully heal them.
But then I got serious and was finally ready for a new way.
Thankfully I found one- and one that is full of compassion and a way out.
I was afraid to look at those limiting beliefs because I didn’t know how to look with my inner wisdom to shine a light and really heal in a powerful way.
When I started working with my inner wisdom and my shadow, the hurt and old patterning started clearing up. Until the hurt and shadow/suffering is neutralized with our inner wisdom then we keep repeating stories. Once I started healing in a deep way with the tools I teach in Illuminate everything started shifting.
For example, just recently I was hoping for a juicy, yummy, bottle of red wine to enjoy for the holidays- and I ended up receiving it a day later at a white elephant holiday party!
When I was out looking at Christmas lights I drove past a restaurant all decorated for Christmas and thought how much I would delight in a holiday meal there. My mom called me 30 seconds later and said she wanted to come into town and take me out to dinner. We went to that restaurant.
And I was really hoping for a skin care line that made me feel good and had ingredients I loved. I ended up getting the line I wanted for Christmas from my mom.
For the first time I started feeling worthy just because I was worthy.
Not out of proving, but because the Universe delights in me and joy is my birthright.
Of course money doesn’t make me happy and I'm not saying we don't work or take action in our lives.
But healing the shadow side and unworthiness that kept popping up in my life needed to happen. This healing needed to happen for me to trust more in living a life that was in tune with me and my truth- to create more expansion and flow.
Thoughts are just thoughts, but they feel so so real until we heal them.
The truth is you don’t have to struggle, there is another way.
And when those pieces in you get healed through quantum forgiveness everything shifts.
So, although it has taken me a year and a half to really start healing my money story, the reality is, I was carrying it around my whole life. So 1.5 years, compared to around 30 of unworthiness is a miracle. I will still gladly pay all of the money and time invested to get to where I am now. And I can feel the last bits of my money story that need healing are slowly slipping away.
Maybe you have a story you are completely ready to say goodbye to in 2020, but you’re a little hesitant. I can promise you that hesitancy is just another limiting belief blocking you from your truth and miracles. It doesn’t belong to you.
You are powerful and so capable and deserving of a life that feels really really good.
A Course In Miracles tells us there is no order of difficulty in miracles, and I’m finding out more and more that it’s so deeply true.
Miracles are your birthright.
If you are ready to completely and fully bring healing and a new path forward in your life, I’d love to have you in my group course Illuminate starting this month!
This group is intimate and powerful.
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Love,
Kalen
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